Dont know how to start so a little back story. I gave birth to my son 8/7/06. Completely healthy pregnancy and delivery. Struggled with infertility ever since found out 10/10/19 I was pregnant again. This is my 5th pregnancy. Since giving birth to my son I have had 1 mc 2014 (8 weeks) and 2 ectopic 2015 & 2016. I was so excited to find out I was pregnant but the excitement quickly turned to fear. I had initial hcg of 149 on 10/10 dr did hcg check again 10/15 and it did rise to 322. She said levels were not as high as she would like to see but still within "normal" range. We will be rechecking hcg again tomorrow 10/17. And I hoping for the best and good news. But given my past history I'm freaking out internally. Only my fiance and my mom know about the pregnancy right now and I dont want to tell anyone in case things dont go well... how do I stay optimistic throughout all this?