I broke up with her like a month ago and we even didn't had big fight or cheat on each other. I just decided she's better with out me because we had ldr like very far away (America/Europe) so I told her I don't want her waste her time on me "kid" , we had 9 years age difference. And she gave up because she had mine "I'm sorry and you deserve better" bs to much. And end of the day I still think about her, I miss her so bad,

worst part I can't even tell her that. She is my second ex, first one was nice fall but second one it was so good and beautiful to fall again for someone, btw we had relationship like 10months not alot but time was running so fast, I'm not regretting falling for her but I wish I could change my life choices sometimes... We even talked about future but I ruined everything. Sometimes I think I deserve to be alone forever😐