Hey guys, little background information: my boyfriend and I have been dating for three years next month.

Trigger warning ⚠️

I was assaulted when I was 15 by a close friend’s cousin. I repressed the memories and after it was over I was very sexual- risky even. I started remembering things three years ago, unfortunately for my boyfriend, and basically became abstinent. I can’t have sex without being upset or crying or feeling disgusted by myself. I have no interest at all. Its affecting my relationship- my boyfriend is so respectful and doesn’t push me and I’m lucky but I can’t make him wait forever. The thing is I want to have sex and I want to be as freaky as I was a few years ago. But I mentally cannot and I don’t know how to jump the road block. I’m in therapy and working on my issue but it doesn’t seem to help.

Anyone have the same issue? Or even just lost interest in sex and you somehow brought it back? Any advice would be lovely :)