Mind to share why?

And how to deal with it?

I love my husband but sometimes am so ashamed to be with him in public.

We met online and I fell in love with him before I knew what he looked like. When we finally met, probably I could have put him in friend zone but he insisted on kissing me. And since I believed in dating for marriage and intimacy in marriage,I felt I couldn't friend zone him anymore because we had kissed. We waited with the sex till marriage.

Anyway. Apart from him being shorter than me and almost everyone making fun of me, and having to deal with all the prejudice about short men, I found out with time that he doesn't believe in treating the people he loves special. Like sometimes we have the means, but we shall be suffering through life just to prove how humble we are. I mean we don't look presentable. He is a full doc but you will find him wearing torn shirts. Our home is gash!!! I have made so many changes and hallelujah for how far we have come, but it is a struggle as he feels comfortable and thinks it is good. He just doesn't know how to be presentable honestly. He is God fearing, humble, hard working and I appreciate all his good traits, but he is not a husband who presents himself in a way that is not ashaming. I find him backwards, local, and a man who likes to make himself and those he loves suffer. Like we don't deserve anything good in life. On the other hand, he is so generous to people so I don't think he is mean.