Insecurities Interfering With Life

My anxiety comes from a lot of insecurities and negative self talk.

I seriously can’t say anything nice about myself.

I’m OBSESSED with how I look, I will take any chance I get to check myself out - particularly my body.

I will get so upset seeing my body after eating or drinking, and will fast and starve myself.

I’m not underweight, but I do have a lot of disordered eating patterns based around getting to the ideal thinness.

My boyfriend of 2 and a half years tells me he adores my body and loves me and thinks I’m the most beautiful girl in the world.

But I’m perpetually terrified of him leaving me, either for someone better or when my mental health issues become too overwhelming for him to handle.

I am scared of what I am not in control of - the future. I obsess over what I can control - my appearance (somewhat).

I recently started my antidepressants again and am starting therapy on the 31st, I need this so badly.

I have never felt such an overwhelming amount of self hatred in my life, if I keep tearing myself down no one will want to be around me.