I feel like no one else would understand so I’m turning to you ladies for advice. This may be kinda long....

So I have a really close friend who has been my rock through this journey and was so sweet; doing research so she could understand the process of

<a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IVF</a>

, asked me to send her my calendar so she knew what I was experiencing and is really the only person who knows everything... my ups and downs and really personal info...

Last week, a different friend told me she is pregnant she literally found out days prior. So I shared with the close friend that for the first time in a while I am happy for a pregnant friend but had this been in May when I went through a really dark period after a loss,it would’ve been tough.

On Monday, my close friend decides to tell me that she is out of her first trimester!!!! and wasn’t sure when to tell me that she is pregnant!!! and contemplated telling me in Nov after my transfer because she didn’t want to distract me??!!

It brought back all those feelings of being the elephant in the room and people not wanting to share their good news with me knowing what I’m going through and trying to “look out for me” only making me feel worse. I understand everyone has the right to keep that news for as long as they feel comfortable. That is her choice. I get that. But I was especially upset with her because we are so transparent about EVERYTHING and I just didn’t think that the 3 month rule applied to our situation. After my transfer in Nov she’d be one of the first to know besides my husband and mom. She even said earlier on I better not wait months to tell her when I’m pregnant. So how could she keep her pregnancy from me for 3 months?? We talk almost everyday and we’ve spent so much time together! Of course it also just hurts that yet another friend is pregnant. Overall I’m just hurt and wish I never told her anything.

My natural reflex is to retreat. I don’t want to share anything with her anymore I don’t want to talk to her. I feel upset and like she lied to me. I told her how I feel but I just cannot go back to normal with her. I know my time is coming... I start injections next week....but if anything has been a distraction it’s this. How do I get over this and get back to my good place?