So not sure where else to post this but..

I feel so alone right now....I had a miscarriage in August which was a total shock as never had one before and then found out I was pregnant again october 9th- which was great but I'm scared and so worried!

I tested a stupid amount and the tests got darker and my digital tests went up to 2-3 weeks quite quickly and then my tests stopped getting darker but only varied slightly in darkness- sometimes lighter/sometimes slightly darker 🤷‍♀️

I did another digital last night thinking I'd finally get 3+ as it had been 8 days since my 2-3 one and I got 1-2, so now I'm assuming the worse

But I feel so alone! My husband doesnt know what to say, my mum just tells me not to stress, I've spoken to both doctors and midwifes- actually cried down the phone to them and they wont help me- wont send me for bloods or an early scan unless I start bleeding (which I'm not) and we cant really afford a private scan atm plus I'm scared it will be empty....

Sorry this is long but I needed to just write it out...I'm stuck in limbo and I've just got to wait till either I start bleeding or my first scan 🤷‍♀️