I feel so fucking guilty !

So I work odd hours because I work in a bar. This month I plan on changing my hours to day shifts only . 10 am - 7pm. But I honestly have been exhausted. I work 5 days a week but long hours.

Monday - off

Tuesday - off

Wednesday- 10 am - 11pm

Thursday- 4pm - 11 pm

Friday- 10:00 - 5 am yes five am

Saturday 6 pm - 5 am

Sunday 10:45 - 4 pm

Even on the days I go in late or am off I wake up at 6:30/7 am . Which I don’t do much . I’ll take my dog for a walk . Go for a run. Clean up and run errands. And watch the news. So the past few weeks I’ve been resting and sleeping in and I feel so much better. Today I slept in and watched movies. Ordered pizza and watched horror movies and the office all day . I got up to shower and let my dog out. But here’s the issue, I feel so damn guilty. I feel like because I’m an adult I need to be up doing productive things. Even now I’m in bed I feel like I need to clean my bathroom or run to the bank lol @ 9 pm .

I feel guilty for almost anything I do for myself. I could go and get a mani pedi and hyperventilate over it. I haven’t treated myself to Starbucks in forever . Why am I like this ? It’s just sleep . I should take the sleep I need .