Should I wait?🥴🤔

So I do not know when I’m technically ovulating because of irregular cycles. I have been trying for a baby as you see but since September 1st. I missed my period all September then came on October 10th. I thought I was pregnant since I got to faint positives but the rest were negative also blood. So I was thinking maybe a chemical pregnancy, I was having symptoms like cramping, fatigue, food aversions, peeing a lot all that. I really want a baby and I have eliminated stress & just really trying to get healthy by taking vitamins and changing my habits. My boyfriend always cums in me but every since I had my period the 10th and before it’s these cramps like hurting stabbing aching and feels like pressure, it’s has been a little on the worse side since Oct 16, my boobs are sore they feel different then my usual pms. I’ve been getting headaches, very vivid dreams, sleeping a lot, dizziness out the blue, off balance, everything I feel off. I’m scared to test because negatives literally break my heart. I was crying earlier because I don’t want to see one I just want a baby to call mines and take care of it. Could these just be pms symptoms? Since we’ve had sex a lot could I just take a test now? I have a doctors appointment Nov 4, I was thinking just wait and get a blood test done but it’s like should I do it now to get it over with? I just really want a positive test...🥺