Depression After Miscarriage

I have been medicated for bipolar disorder for 10+ years but last year when we decided we would try to get pregnant my husband and I decided we wanted to try it without my meds. With help from the psychiatrist I stopped all of my psych meds.

I’ve used massage and self care practices to manage my depressive episodes this year. It’s worked well and I overall like the way I feel without the cloud from antidepressants and mood stabilizers.

However, I lost a pregnancy at the end of September and for the past two weeks I’ve been struggling with some depression effects; sleeping/tired a lot, feeling unmotivated, a lack of passion for my education and job (both of which I normally love).

I’m considering returning to my psychiatrist for medication/help but I feel like I’m giving up on a medication free pregnancy. But idk how much more of this I can take either. Anyone else done or dealt with anything similar?