How do I move on??

Elisa

I've been looking for support groups for rape victims around my area and there is legit none. I dont know how to deal with this. I was raped by my ex boyfriend. We werent together when he did this to me. I feel like all my friends are sick of me because I am legit always crying. I have no joy in my life and I just feel broken. I just want to die most days. :(