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My name is allison, well I dont know where to start. I will start by telling you about my son. His name is tobias, I got pregant in the beginning of 2017. I was 6 weeks and 6 days pregant when I found out. Hurray, I had a healthy and everything was fine. On october 26th I had an appointment with my ob/gyn she told me I was 2 cm dilated, I asked her about my big boy sitting higher and next days lower, she said everything was alright on that same night around 11:30 we rushed to the hospital because I felt as if something was wrong and my contractions were 2 or 3 minutes apart. I thought, this is it hes ready to come out. Well we made it to the hospital and we got back into the room they put the monitors on me but couldnt find his heart rate, they brought a doctor in with a ultrasound machine, and here ladies is when my depression really kicked in. They had to do an emergency c-section my son's lung had collapsed and he almost died that night. They took him to a different hospital to see how bad the damage was done to his brain and stop any brain damage, but it was already to late, due to the lack of oxygen at birth he had severe brain damage and it affected his motor skills. There goes my healthy pregancy... I had a disabled baby but he was my baby and I was glad he even survived. The older he got the more severe it became. We had therapists come in our house left and right and he was improving. October of 2018 my son turned a year old.... not even a month later on november 20th 2018, my baby passed away in the hospital due to asperating some vomit after 1 hour of me trying to get some sleep.... I woke up to my son almost lifeless. The first responders got him to cry once as I begged to see him... I buried my baby. It will be 1 year without him.... I miss him so much. Thank you for listening to my story about my beloved child.