My mom was diagnosed with multiple sclerosis in august and has had two major flare ups since then. I’m talking like not being able to feel her legs bc of lesions on her spine and losing all eyesight in her left eye. The doctor said shes one of the fastest progressing patients he’s ever had in his entire career. My mom had me when she was 15 so we’ve always been really close, she’s absolutely my best friend. I’m struggling getting pregnant and especially now knowing that sometime in near future she’s not going to be the mom I’ve always known (possibly wheel chair bound, blind, involuntary muscle movements etc) scares me. I’ve always imagined my mom being there beside me while raising my kids, spending weekends with gramma and doing fun stuff like building snow men and baking. I’m not saying that the hardest part about my mom having ms is knowing that she most likely won’t be around to watch them grow up but it’s something that’s been on my mind a lot lately. I just want my kids to know my mom the way I know her.

Sorry if this sounds super rambly and doesn’t make any sense. Currently im in the middle of a late night crying session lol.