Fu*kk

Ok, so there’s this friend of mine named Albert. He asked me today if I could grab his hands and stretch his arm out since he was sore. I got both of his hands but ended up pulling him towards me all the while he has his head slightly tilted back,eyes closed,mouth slightly open making a noise. I instantly let go and laughed it off since I was feeling some type of way. But I still continue to grab his other hand and help him out. Then I eventually stop. So, needless to say, he turned me on. I had a crush on him in the beginning of the year, I even told him this, but idk if I still have feelings for him. The night before this happened, I dreamt of him being in my bedroom and me saying I love you to him and him saying me too. I also dreamt of him that same night but I can’t remember of what. I also find that I love to look into his eyes and we get really close sometimes. He sometimes likes to put his leg on top of mine and I just let him cause tbh I enjoy it. I know he’s probably just being friendly but I’m over here trying not to catch feelings, again. So yeah. I’m developing feelings for my friend and that sucks. When I told him that I used to like him in the beginning he was just surprised and smiled and asked me if I was serious. But thankfully he didn’t treat me any different. If anything I feel like we’ve become closer. Ahhh I just felt the need to vent. I’ve been saying to myself that I don’t have any feelings for him, but then again. I dream about him, I like to touch him(not sexually), and I just like being in his company. Am I developing feelings, or do I just like him as a close friend?