I’m just done

My birthday is November 14 n I feel like I’m the blame for everything and sometimes feel like I don’t mater. I had this big plan to go to the spa with my partner, and on Saturday, go to this vegan fest on Saturday morning then go clubbing. After being told are rent going to b rase my partner said he had only 100 to spend on my birthday and I told him let forget the spa ( even though I been looking forward to it.) then he was telling me that he may have to pick up his sister after I told him to ask her many time to talk to her about when she picked her up ( the airport is in NYC, and you just spend the hold day in traffic) he told her he was going to do it and it made me feel that I should not plan anything for my birthday but stay in PJ . He started to fight with me say he was not going to ( he always goes back on his word Just n FYI) when it comes to his family he going to put them first. I would go with him but there not going to be room for me n her hole family. He kept going and told me I’m playing the victim when I told him I feel like cancel my plans. He stormed off and left me in the middle of the street, shouting I can't deal with you anymore I’m suffering from depression and anxiety. I think that this birthday is only going to b me by myself. I don't feel like doing any just because I feel like a bother. I been cry my eyes out for hours now, wishing I could disappear. As I'm crying, he is saying this your fault just because I did not want to text his sister to ask if it this Thursday or next Thursday, and I'm not going to apologize for something. I did not do it. I started to cry even harder