So when I was 13 I was in a secret relationship with (what I thought) was a 24 year old man.

Im almost 22 and I couldn't even imagine being with a 13 year old.

During the time it was consensual sex. We got caught. (I would sneak out, and eventually got caught) He ran from the cops and I still tried to keep in contact.

Eventually I ended it. Well i know he got caught back in 2014. Today i was doing research and i was looking up child grooming, it sounded like that is what happened to me. 1. He was good friends with my mom. 2. He told me personal stories about guys childhood 3. He always treated me different, like buying me stuff and making me feel special

But its so hard cause in my mind I think he loved me? I still think he ha feelings for me? Anyways, I searched and searched until I found his arrest report, I couldn't believe it. He was actually 27 when all this happened. All this time I thought he was 23. And yes, I know it's not that big a difference, but going for so many years taking up for him to find out he lied to me, it was a very mixed emotion. I felt violated after I found his REAL age even though I consented to the sex when I was 13.

I know nothing can change the fact that it happened and it's over, but it did bother me.

I told my husband when I found out and I was crying. I don't have feelings for the man who took my virginity, idk. Its vet hard to explain. I don't think I "raped" cause I consented, but a part of me feels violated due to the fact that I was 13 and he was 27.