Ok I know deep down I only wanted to drink and have fun. Not do anything sexual. I was with my friend and her cousin and the cuz bf . We were all drinking but him.

He supposedly was just as fucked up as we were. But he never drank with us.

Her cousin kept grabbing my arm. Kept shoving me to his dick and I did do the thing once and backed away. I kept saying stuff like I don’t want you to fight me when you’re sober, I kept trying to find an excuse. But she pulls me back in. She said I would say “ok” and I would give in. we left to drop off my friend to her house as she had to go home. By the time we go back. I’m very fucked up. I’m seeing double vision. I remember bits of it. I don’t even know what’s going on anymore . I recall they told me to take of my clothes and I did. But I’m so drunk. I know at this point I think my head is hollow cause I don’t remember thinking much . I know I just didn’t want things to go as they were going but I never said no. Now they’re saying that I said “whatever happens stays here” and I honestly do not remember saying that. I kept telling her over the phone. I was too fucked up , I don’t remember saying that. I don’t remember taking off my own bra, I thought they took it off.

When i was talking to her on the phone I told her I never wanted things to go that way and that it was hard for me to say no for some reason and she said she was “sorry” but then said something like she was too fucked up too and that I was fucked up and that I said this and that and I have gut feeling that I’m being lied to. She kept saying she was buzzed. Then she said she was fucked up . Then she said her man was just as fucked up but he didn’t drink with us at all. He drank earlier that day when we were working but it’s a small restaurant. Not even a full bar. There’s no way he was just as fucked up as we were. Like the story keeps changing.

Am I just regretting what happened? Or is this more serious than what her cousin makes it out to be. At this point I’m very confused.

And I get it’s her bf. I know this girl loves him. So it’s very easy to assume that she’s saying all this to defend him.

Also she’s 17 and he’s like 30! I didn’t know that till now.

We’re all talking and trying to get our stories straight as to what happened.