Help....

So the more I get into this the more I'm realizing that this is a serious mental game. Like holy sh*t, it's literally taking up my every thought. I got another negative pregnancy test today and all I could do was sit there and stare at it and cry. My little girl could tell when I came out of the bathroom that I was not doing well. I cried all my tears and washed my face before I opened the door, but she knew. Bless her little 3 yr old heart. She just asked me to pick her up and then she gave me the biggest hug and planted a kiss on my cheek and said "it's ok mommy, I kiss it better!" I couldn't help it, I just started sobbing again. I'm not sure how many more no's I can take. My husband went to bed and seems like he couldn't care less that another month has gone by and we're not pregnant and now I'm just sitting on the couch alone, trying to keep it together. I'm so sorry to the rest of you that are going through the same thing...