Secretly sad when i get my period

My husband always says were not going to conceive for quite some time yet since I’ve only been off the pill for like 5 months, but every time my period comes, Im hoping its implantation bleeding 😩 anyone else in the same boat? We dont talk about doing opk’s or anything just naturally happening, but i lowkey want to know and TRY! Everyone else in my family or friends is like I HOPE YOURE WAITING A FEW YEARS whenever having babies come up. Would be great to know there’s other women feeling the same way.