I know I'm not pregnant, but ..

I Know I'm not pregnant, I don't have periods (even though you can sometimes ovulate without a period) and part of me wants to believe that every small ache I have in my hips or every second of heartburn or every bit of weight gain or every tear I cry because of mood swings is because of a bun in the oven, but it isn't. I just know that's not the reason. I used to LOVE soda, I'd drink one a day and now I don't even want it anymore. I keep heartburn, and part of me wants to test to make sure but the other part knows how heart breaking it is to see just one line. 😣😔😔 Prayers that I can be strong through this process 🙏😩