Im losing hope...


So by some miracle last year I concieved with my ex who either had a very low count or was *sterile* in his words. I deal with pcos too which makes it a miracle. But I caught it too late and miscarried at 6 weeks. Now, im engaged and me and him are starting our journey early because we are aware of how long it can take. But, every test I take is heartbreaking. Every time I go in for bloodwork it's negative again. It is breaking my heart. My man has a very high count, almost doubled. But yet I still struggle to conceive. If I could then, with a man with sperm issues, why can't I now? We can't afford fertility care and its not covered by insurance

Im losing hope. Please help guys 😓