I am so excited to be pregnant, and I would go through anything for this one to be my rainbow baby but I have to say, my body appears to be boycotting all of this change.

My back (an old mangled muscle) is killing me, my ankle (3 major tendon surgeries) will barely let me put weight on it, I had to stop my antidepressant and anxiety meds so I’m feeling that constantly, and my head is pounding. That’s not including the exhaustion and the nausea...

If this little bean sticks it will be my rainbow baby and I couldn’t be more excited for this journey but I am endlessly anxious about Monday (my appointment).

I feel so guilty for complaining about this because I am so happy but damn why is it already so painful!?! I didn’t expect this for at least a few months.