It is so hard to stay strong around my daughter


She doesn’t think I’ll be happy again until I have another baby in my belly. So I walk away when I’m sad so she doesn’t think anything. Here’s my story..

I have a confession to make. A confession I never thought I'd have to make, but here we are and here it is. I should be 18 weeks pregnant, going crazy anticipating the gender of the baby, and excited to finally feel the baby kicking me. I should be, but I'm not. My pregnancy was pretty typical for me, I was nauseous and tired every day. I didn't notice anything different besides a horrible headache that wouldn't go away. I went into my 16 week appt, and then was when we found out that my headaches were due to my hormones decreasing and that the baby no longer had a heart beat. I delivered that beautiful soul, a baby boy, and saw all the could've beens in his little face. We named him Gabriel Brian and will get to lay him to rest in December. We're celebrating him now and always. He was only here a short time but he was a part of us and we are proud to know that we had two little boys and a loving big sister, even If it was for just a little while.

This is a tribute to him and all the other little souls that are with him now or could be with him. Any one of you, no matter how far along you were, that experienced this kind of lose knows how hard it is and all the questions we wished could be answered. I'm so sorry to any of you going through this too.

Gabriel Brian Personette

Born 11-6-19 at 4:18a.m

We love you always, Mini Bubs❤️