am i being selfish? dont want a baby shower

so i don't want a baby shower anymore. i realized how much it will be. have to waste money for wherever we have it, waste money on food, decorations, etc etc. our lease is up in april, and i really really want to get a house for my mom my bf and i and the new baby coming 🙏🏻. we live in a small 2 bed room apartment on second floor. our apartments are all that, always druggies in and out of the house down stairs (our property manager won't do nothing about it) . my baby shower was planned on last week of march, our lease is up in mid april, and i give birth last week of april.. pls any advice i'd appreciate it 🙏🏻

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