every time me and my boyfriend had a fight or i was upset about something i couldn’t ever say anything without crying my eyes out

i’m afraid to talk to anyone else about my feelings, like recently my mom’s been checking on me seeing if i was okay since i’ve been a little depressed lately but i don’t want to talk to her about anything because i don’t want to cry the whole time

she’s been talking to me about seeing someone like a therapist but i’m afraid i’ll cry like crazy talking to them too and i really don’t want to do that i’d feel like a fool, but i can’t help it i’m just so emotional and have never really spoken out loud about my feelings to anyone but my boyfriend