I can't take it!

Seriously. I'm starting to hate and resent this baby. I want to take his crib down and burn all the stuff we got at the baby shower. I know babies come on their own. But I don't like setting his stuff up a few days before his due date, take disability leave 4 weeks early (now it's past 4 weeks) and just staring at it, with no baby to show for it.

I'm almost 5 days overdue and I'm depressed, upset, pissed off, angry and crying to the point I'm literally starting to resent and hate this whole pregnancy and baby! It doesn't help that my mom has no left eye vision right now, so I have to get out of bed and drive her miles away to work and also take my boyfriend to work too. My grandfather isn't any help because he's not gonna take her. Everything about my mom's and grandfathers health is put on me. I'm tired of stressing. I'm tired of waiting for this baby. I wanted him naturally, no induction, no C-section. But the more overdue i am, the more I'm hating him and hating myself that I can't just have this baby naturally. I can't take this fucking stress and heartache