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Question

I'm to stressful to be around and my personality as of right now is to toxic. I know my boyfriend is trying and he loves me but it's taking a toll on him and I dont want to do this to him anymore. The thought of being with him and him being with anybody else physically hurts me. As of right now I don't want to exist anymore. I just wish I could be somebody else.

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It sounds like you need to work through a lot of stuff and learn to handle your emotions in a healthier way  
Perhaps by seeing a therapist, perhaps by learning on your own how to work through and process emotions better.
Feeling toxic is the worst :/ 
At least you see it and want to get better

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You need to grow out of that habit , as u sound immature not wanting ur partner with anyone else but u , that's selfish on ur behalf and immature . You need to learn how to trust him , love. And to find ur worth to give that to not be feeling that way ,
I know with my current bf I felt the same way not wanting to leave my bf bc I didn't want him to be with another girl so we where always on and off I would be fine when we broke up but when he started speaking to a girl I would be mad and want to get back with him for that reason , which was very childish of me back then
But I learned how to trust him , knew I did love him and now if we where to end things I wish nothing but the best in him bc of that bond I was able to out grow that and mature my self and not think that way anymore " with another girl " and u need to focus on ur self and ur bf or just leave ur bf so that u can focus on ur mental state

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