SOMEONE HELP A SIS OUT!!!

okay... so this will be my first time posting something on this app aaaaand Imma be really upset if I don’t get any responses but I’m abt to be very open abt this *deep breath* here goes..

So I am not into labels-whatsoever-I have been in two relationships and each with guys and it was very toxic long story short every male figure in my life has been toxic and abusive in some way and my friendships are shaky at the moment BUT I’ve blocked out a lot of emotions and went numb for awhile

Sooo I met someone through a friend and it was my friends cousin and her cousin is trans and from the moment I met him I had this feeling and it came as a shock because ME feelings?!! Yeah right. but we are talking and he got out of a toxic relationship abt 6 months ago and I want to be careful with my feelings because I want him to have a chance to heal and let go on his on time but I feel like I’m going to get hurt and I feel awkward sometimes and I’m scared I’ll say the wrong thing or do something and I’m very reserved and don’t talk much anyways and I feel I’ll scare him off— I might be overthinking.

Another thing is what other people say doesn’t bother me and same with him but we can’t really be with one another officially due to age and I have a psychotic father that calls the cops on me if I even set foot outside (sorry for all the babbling I just really needed to get that off my chest) .. help! 🤭🥺