I need *widow* support

My husband passed away, October 10th. No, we were not trying to conceive.

Ive always wanted my tubes tied since before I ever even had my first period. I was probably 12-13 or so, years old.

he did make a big deal about getting his tubes tied, (when we first started dating, that he was looking to get his tubes tied), then afterwards was firm about it, then more so recently, he “changed” his mind.

not sure if he changed it coz he wanted kids, or maybe he just knew he was going to pass away and changed his mind so that I’d had a chance to have someone around that reminded me of / was part, him, etc