I'm scared

I'm 14. I cut, I'm anorexic, have depression, anxiety, and I'm suicidal. I have 2 suicide attempts, 1 in kindergarten and 1 in the 5th grade. My family is trying to put me into residential and I dont know what to expect or how to react. I dont want to leave school, my friends and family. I've been in and out if the mental hospital 5 times in the past 2 months.

I dont know what to do anymore