This baby is a beacon of hope

Here I am sitting scared, wondering if I'll just find out bad news at the next ultrasound next week. I'm still scared because of my MMC, but I made milestones this time and feeling at peace this time. First milestone was getting pregnant. Second milestone was first appointment I would see a heartbeat. Check. Third milestone was a pretty big one...making it past 8 weeks. I went to a private ultrasound place around 9 weeks worried about the worst (after some spotting almost every week) and to my surprise, baby is going strong! My next milestone is making it past the next ultrasound, which I'll be almost 12 weeks. This baby is a huge blessing and is showing. So much good feelings deep in my heart. I have to keep telling myself that this pregnancy, there was a perfect egg and perfect sperm picked out just for me and its showing.