I miscarriaged at 16 weeks in July. Our due date is coming up.. December 16th. I found out a few weeks ago that I am pregnant again and due in July. We are so excited but so nervous. I’m trying to enjoy this pregnancy but all I can think about is the what if’s. My first appointment is December 13th. I feel empty. I’m mourning and I haven’t stopped. My boyfriend is positive and looking towards the future but I’m stuck.. I feel so stuck. I feel like I will never stop mourning and forgetting that day. It was traumatizing all that happened. I don’t know how to be okay and still be excited for this little blessing that is hopefully doing okay. How do you mourn your baby that was due this month and still be excited for a new life? I’m sure others have been where I’m at.