I know this isn’t for mental health but...

....... I’m struggling with my thoughts. I haven’t been taking my meds regularly like I used too. I lost my job early this year because of missing work from going to the mental hospital at a time for weeks multiple times. I missed too much. I was diagnosed with bipolar 2

I’ve suffered terrible by severely dehydration because I didn’t care to eat or drink.. also causing me an infection and uti, self harm, loosing my job, friends, failing classes, bad memory and trouble understanding/ thinking to solve issues or questions, and started to get anxiety.

I was on many meds and finally lithium was the one that helped me. I went to school and started a job (and we agreed to 20-24 hrs)

I was pretty steady with my meds until my new schedule started with work and school but I tried to manage. Now this last month our work hours are longer (I’m working 35hrs plus classes) so I’m not getting much sleep or remember to take my meds.. which I’ve missed almost every day in November.... now I’m crying everyday either just sad or about something. And now I have that “I don’t think I’ll be normal” or “it’s not worth trying because I will feel like this again” thoughts go through my head.. I try my best to remember but I was just so thrown off And I don’t even care anymore. I’m spending too much money and I need advice on what I should do... I feel like I’m falling apart. I don’t have friends and my family don’t understand. They expect me to be OK. They are pushing me to work more and take more classes but I don’t feel like I can.