I hate myself because I’m FAT !! I am so lonely

Hello, as you see in my title, I’m a fat girl, and no one would ever ask me out and I hate that, I cry every single day because of this issue, my mother and family keep stressing me about the relationship issues and they want me to be in a relationship and I just can’t tell them that no guy would even look at me as a beautiful person. My ex bf for 5 years left me because he thinks that I’m too big for him. I hate to go in public, I am starting to hate myself because of all the disgusting things that I hear all the time. My birthday is next week and I have no one to celebrate with, my family is busy, I have no guys in my life, my girl friends are busy, and my ex feels that I’m not worthy enough to get love because I don’t look good !!

My whole family keeps telling me that I look like a man and I shouldn’t be a girl because I’m disgusting!

I’m turning 23 and I hate every single detail of my body, I can’t stand looking in the mirror and I feel sooo lonley.