when I thought my pregnancy couldn’t be any more difficult..

This is baby #6...I can’t wait to meet her 💕 This has been my toughest pregnancy yet..I almost died after baby #5 almost two years ago due to a bad infection when she was 11 days old. That itself was a struggle and caused a lot of worry this time around. In this pregnancy at 11 weeks I was hospitalized due to shortness of breath and chest pain. They found 10 blood clots in my lungs. So I have been on daily injections of Lovenox ever since and will be up to six months postpartum. I am currently 32 weeks and a few weeks ago I was diagnosed by my high risk with Gestational Diabetes. I now take metformin twice a day for that and check my

blood sugar 4 times a day. Long story short I don’t have much help with family or anything because most live out of state. My husband has been by my side everyday the last 10 years. We have been in the process of making him a permanent resident in the U.S since 2015. After all of the waiting and spending and paperwork..A notice came Friday stating he would have his official Visa interview in Honduras this upcoming January 10...we both work full time, three of out kids attend school and two attend daycare. Its xmas time. He will need to be in Honduras about two weeks prior to the interview so he can pass through medical examinations and gather legal documentation from his home country to bring along to the interview. Idk if anyone else has notice but airfare during the holidays is outrageous. On top of it my husband will have to leave before xmas and with all of these unseen emergency expenses xmas won’t be as “fulfilling” for my children. The biggest thing is I don’t know when he will be back and now I am constantly worrying who will help me care for my children if baby #6 comes early. I have to have a repeat csection and I am supposed to find out the date tomorrow at my apt. I am so stressed out and I didn’t have anyone else to talk to so I am just venting. I apologize in advance that I can’t control my feelings right now.