Breakups

Why are breakups so hard.. especially your first? It’s like I was used for over a year for just sex. Our relationship wasn’t any relationship others get to have. We bearly did anything together. We never went out, we have no pictures together, didn’t really remind me that he cared about me or show me. 🥺 then told me we have to be in love for me to meet his parents so that has never happened nor will because he doesn’t love me