Needing some encouragement... I have a 5y/o son and have wanted baby #2 for a long time. My husband wanted to wait to try for #2 until we were more financially stable and moved out of our smaller townhome/purchased a home. I get it, I do, so I compromised and waited. Time passed and we received promotions with pay increases and were financially stable with enough saved up for a home it was just a matter of finding one and etc. so I told him I wanted to start trying (mind you I told him this all of the time but I think at this point I was now becoming very upset). I’ve always wanted my 1st to have a sibling close in age. My husband agreed and so we started trying (yay!)... this was over a year ago now. Each month was me getting my hopes up ending up with disappointment. In April we closed on our first home so we have had a lot of distractions, but with the holidays around and life calming around us with the house, I’ve been getting those down feelings again. To make matters worse, I’m struggling with jealousy. There’s been 4 babies in our immediate family born since I’ve wanted to start trying. I feel even thought I’ve been technically TTC for 1 year, my heart and mind has been TTC for 4 years. I’m having a hard time staying positive and even wanting to have sex and try because it leads to such disappointment. I know people struggle but I guess we never think we would be the ones that struggle TTC - need positive words of encouragement...