Devastated

So in October in I found out I was pregnant and I was very happy to be cause I waited how long to be ..... but then my boyfriend said he can’t manage so we decided to have and abortion

Then I I went right into depression because I had nobody to talk about it and it really had hurt me so bad n even this day I regret it

Now only to find out he as another baby on the way with his ex girlfriend apparently he was sleeping with us both n lying 🤥 and I am so heartbroken 😞 and sad cause this person said he loves me n turn around blamed me for the abortion and he cheated and lied about n still lying cause I ask him n he still haven’t told me the truth am so hurt 😭 but I can’t cry in front my other son

He waited n didn’t tell me the girl was pregnant

I went back to work to see this blow up into my face n he is still not telling me the truth

What should I do???

Am so devastated that idk what to do