Feeling anxious

I’m 21 and pregnant. My husband (who’s 24) and I just got married in June. We talked about having a baby forever, but when we got married he decided he wanted to wait a couple years. I was still set on trying right away (I know, I’m so young). We argued about it. We ended up getting pregnant but I had a miscarriage. We were both devastated. I asked him over and over if he wanted to try again or just wait a year or two. He said he really wanted to try again.

So we did, and I got pregnant immediately. I’m 15 weeks now and so excited. But he told me right after we found out that he didn’t really feel like he wanted one yet, and wished we could just be married for awhile. I got so sad because I asked him if he wanted to try again and he said yes. He says he was just really emotional because of the loss, which I understand.

Now I feel terribly guilty about being pregnant. My husband is so sweet and treats me so well. He says he’s happy and loves our baby, but I can’t stop feeling like I ruined his vision for our life together. I feel like I took away a precious time from us and that I shouldn’t be a mom yet.

Will our relationship ever be the same? Did I ruin the best years of our life? I truly love our baby so so much and we’ve both always wanted one.

Sorry for the long post, just needed to vent.