Should I break up with my boyfriend?

We were high school sweethearts. Both started college this year. Our junior year he was emotionally abusive and would tell me how much he loved other girls and not me (emotional cheating). He pressured me into things I did not want to do, but I wanted to please him and make him happy. This is my first relationship and I didn’t know how to handle this and I was too prideful to break up. I decided to forgive him and move on. He improved for our senior year. Now it’s two years later and I find that I haven’t really forgiven him for what he did. Thinking about it, I don’t understand why I stayed with him. He was cruel and selfish (more details but not adding for privacy reasons) and he hurt me deeply. I realize now that I’m getting older and I would like a relationship with my partner where he wasn’t into other people and I didn’t feel pressured. Am I wrong for this after all this time has passed?

Ps he is incredibly kind and loving now... I just feel like it’s too late. He never let me resolve the cheating with him. He was always too embarrassed to talk about it and the emotions I needed to express to him I never could. I worry that I feel the need to break up with him due to a fear of missing out. I can’t help but think “is this all that love is supposed to be?” When I think about our relationship history. What he did really hurt me. I never thought a partner would do that.

I am nervous to move on. His family is my family and my family loves him so, so much. I don’t want to blindside them or disappoint anyone. I also worry about having to start over with someone. However that is also quite exciting to me as well. I feel guilty and nervous about all of this.