He said I am a dirty bitch and I don't deserve to go anywhere over the holidays, he was imposing rules of where my son can go...

After 5 long years, the man I married called me a dirty bitch in front of my son who was crawling around near his mummy and daddy. All because I simply washed the dishes after cooking bacon and eggs and the kitchen had been a mess, I hadn't cleaned during. So I proceeded to clean and I asked this is better yes and he said are you joking with me right now? This table isn't clean the floor is filthy. You know we fight over this all the time and you promise you will be cleaner! You know what, no more cooking, that way you don't make a mess. And your son, is only to go to daycare and back home, new rule and you don't deserve to go anywhere with me this holiday, you are lucky you have a p..y to have that son. The next day I called my son's maternal nurse and she said I was exposing Connor to family violence. 3 weeks ago he called me a dumb bitch because he said our gas bill was 150.00 and I had said it's not bad for two months living here and he said did i f know when the bill came in, what date and did I work to pay it, no so sht up u dumb b.. are u going to work, i'm fk taking your car keys if you aren't you stupid btch... I told him that evening, I didn't appreciate it being called that and he said you are stupid saying a bill is cheap when you don't work to pay for it and you don't know what date so he had called me stupid. Child protection visited my son's daycare and ordered us into court, they gave connor to me to live at my mums until court resumed on Friday this week my husband can only see connor twice this week and for 1.5 hour supervised. When I went to get my things, he threatened to use my bipolar disorder against me so I don't get accomodation orders again for connor and he reiterated the same thing he told me 6 months ago, he is my friend and never has loved me.. I have a 6 week old foetus and a 15 month old son and I have never felt so hurt, so offended, how can someone I married to for five years call me that, not only that proceed to blame me. He told me his anger is only because of me, I do wrong things to trigger him. I said he needs anger management. I am over it, all my social security money I deposit in our joint bank account and my work money I deposit part of it into there, he works 7 days loses his money to poker machines and then wipes $850 of my money that I deposited to pay rent. My son and I only have $360.00 left to eat and buy presents. Until after Christmas when my next pay is. I am over it!!! I want my life back, my smiley self. I want to wake up and not have to be called names or belittled. I want my son, to know mummy is OK all the time not in tears, not in fear of doing things wrong..

Update: The court appearance was nerve racking. I received Connor until the court decides again in 4 weeks, hubby received 3 visits on 1.5 hours. My father said he remembered West saying i coerced him into having a baby, which explains why he never gave me help in the house and leaves the house almost every night leaving my son. He intimidated me saying Bipolar don't have rights in front of the law and never have a say like criminals. He said he would say everything about my mood swings and unstable ways. All he said was I didn't feed connor and I left him in the feeding room in the NICU to get my breast pump in my room. He made me cry when he told me I would make myself lose my son, I reported it to my lawyer and it's gone on his record. I wiped my tears and I went into the room head high, the only order made for me is to see my Psychiatrist and prep a report and stay on my meds. Today connor waited for his dad from 10am I went out for coffee with my sis, but his dad never came, bloody dead beat... my son was bathed and waiting in his jeans and tee with nanna. Just shows he never wanted my son, but it is ok. His mum wants him, he is the only man I say right now who loves me unconditionally and thinks I mean the world to him.