Need some support and help!!

Sooo long story short. I was a complete train wreck since I transferred colleges last spring. I transferred literally because I had to and it literally killed my drive for everything. I started drinking a lot and work full time. I fell behind this semester and couldn’t catch up so now I’m an academic suspension. Now I have to write a letter to the school saying why this happened and why I want to go back. I also haven’t told my parents and I don’t know how. If anyone has advice or can help in anyway pls do. I’m freaking out!! I really want to get my degree 😩