Dating apps and marriage

To start, I would like to say that I have made my fair share of mistakes, and would really appreciate no judgment because I am trying to right my wrongs.

A few months ago I got on Tinder (nothing physical happened) and my husband found out. We’ve done really well at working with each other. We went to counseling and nothing weird has come up since.

Tonight I just got this URGE to get on a dating app. And I know myself, if I let it sit in my brain I’m afraid I would do it.

So I talked to my husband about it, saying I don’t necessarily want to, but I feel this urge to just do it. Now he’s mad saying I don’t want to be with him.

But I do. I do want to be with him and that’s why I decided to talk it out instead of just letting my brain go with it. Does that make sense?

Ugh I’m just frustrated.