It don’t feel like Christmas!👵🏾😭🙏🏾🕊

This will be my first year not spending me and my family Christmas with my grandma, you guys don’t know how emotional it makes me she past away July 31st at 3:35am this year from cancer and I was 5 months then,and every sense that day it changed me I’m currently 39+4 weeks now baby due any day now and the only thing I was looking forward to was seeing my grandma holding my first child for the first time, taking pictures of them I was even looking forward in telling her what was the gender but i can’t even do that cause she cause she passed before I got the chance to tell her .I know my mom is hurting too but she’s trying to be strong for us it’s really just hitting me I won’t see her anymore 😭 ( I took this picture on Christmas Day she didn’t like pictures but I snapped it anyways) damn I missing her