I’m stuck

Hey ladies.

So I’m a bit stuck on what to do atm. A bit of a back story, I’m 18 my s/o is 20, been together 1.5 years. I had a very protective mother and was never allowed out of the house let alone go to a party or anything. Him on the other hand was out every night, partied and experienced life. We met at work he was a manager and I was crew ( not allowed at all) I was having trouble at home and ended up moving in with him (just moved out him self) after only a month. I also had to quit my job to be with him. I love him so much but we ate very very different complete opposites to be more accurate. And the last couple of months I have just felt like something was missing and dealing with him most days and the struggle of moving out at 17 with my boyfriend and dealing with bills and stuff is starting to get to me to the point of I really don’t want to do any of it anymore. I work in a motel where we have a contract with one of the coal mines around town. Long story short I ended up cheating on my s/o with one of the workers. Mind you neither myself or the worker want to have a relationship together but I find myself wanting to be single and when I go out dancing with guys and stuff. I ended up tell my Aunty and Mum about this and they both told me I should move to Brisbane (I’m from rural Nsw) with my Aunty, which I have always wanted to do. But I can’t seem to bring myself to leave my s/o and move. I love him so much and we have a rental lease together and all the fun it Ute and everything. I don’t want to leave him I love him so so so much but I can’t stop thinking about if I was really happy I wouldn’t feel the way I do. I guess what I’m trying to ask is if you had the choice would you move or stay?