-I was 9 weeks & 3 days pregnant when the horrible cramps started . Spent my night having a miscarriage in the ER . My sister in law was two months ahead of me . She gave birth on the 30th , & I was there for the full 21 hours of labor . & the 10 mins of pushing . I held her leg & watched something I’ve never seen . I am amazed . I only started to get teary eyed when he started to cry so I went home . It’s my 3rd miscarriage , now I’m feeling like I’ll never get that . I got married in November , 2 months after my miscarriage . Everyone around me is getting pregnant . My social media is bursting with “SO OMG MY SON / DAUGHTER IS GONNA BE A BIG SISTER/BROTHER” . Like okay that’s cool ... I just wanna tell everyone to stop making babies so that maybe I can have mine . But that’s not right nor is it fair . It’s no ones fault but my own . I’m fertile , just broken . This app says I’m 5 days late on my period .. but my other app says I won’t start until the 3rd . This app didn’t take my miscarriage too well apparently , even tho I’ve put in my periods since then . Even if I don’t start on the third I know it’s gonna come up not pregnant , as all the others did . My doctors won’t see me until April , which is when I was due . They did blood tests , genetic tests . & i have to wait 6 months . Maybe I’m just in my head .