Feel like a whore....

Guys, I feel awful about it, but I’ve been having so much damn fun lately!! I’ve spent my entire life thinking that hot guys with nice bodies and stuff would never be interested in a big girl like me. I decided to throw caution to the wind about 2 weeks or so ago though and signed up for a hook up site. So many hotties have been hitting me up. I am looking just for sex. My number is only 4, soon to be 5. 3 of those have been in 2 weeks though. I do feel like a whore for being with so ma y guys so quickly, but I’ve been safe and I’ve been having fun. We use condoms, I’m on birth control, we meet in a public place first, I have several people on speed dial that are friends that are willing to come help me if needed, and at least 2-3 people know where I am at all times. I have a safe word that I text them every couple hours so that they know that I’m alright. I also have 2 danger words. 1 is that I need them to come and get me and the other that they need to call the police.

I honestly don’t know why I feel so guilty about it though. Like I feel like I’m so gross.