I've been staying with my step dad for the past 3 weeks because i needed some space from my son's father. A quick lil back story.... My step dad is no longer w my mother but he's still in my life & he does help me out quite a bit. He is now with one of my moms old friend. It was strange & hard to accept at first, but he seems happy & honestly that's all that matters, considering my mom wasn't very good to him. Anywho, although i do accept his new relationship i must admit it is so strange to literally sit on the outside & watch them be a family like how he used to be with me & my siblings. Im in the living room w my baby & from where i am seated i have a clear view on them at the table talking & eating amongst each other. Im happy for them but also very sad that it's not my family sitting at that table anymore. I mean he obviously still see's me as family enough to let me stay with him so that's awesome but its not the same...

He took me out for birthday lunch not too long ago. We went to this restaurant he used to take us to when we were younger & the chef was still there, but didn't quite remember me. When he put 2 & 2 together the chef asked, "oh she's your other daughter right?" & he got really uncomfortable. I try not to let it get to me but it does.

It also sucks when they go out or do anything in the house they don't involve me.

I don't know maybe I'm being silly, but for some reason this is hitting me really hard right now.