The most traumatic constipation experience

So I’m in my first trimester and have experienced a little bit of constipation but mostly daily vomiting and not being able to eat or take vitamins has been my struggle.

So tonight I experienced the worst constipation in life. 😩. I felt like I had to go, so I’m on the toilet and nothing is coming. So I just figured it would take a while. I start pushing and pushing and now it’s starting to become very painful. An hour goes by, I’m in so much pain. My poop is literally stuck. I’m pushing so hard I’m throwing up! Feeling like I’m going to pass out. I start screaming and cal for my husband. He tells me to get in the shower/bath to just help calm me down/help push. He said just screw it and try to poop in the bathtub. I’m crying and yelling in pain! Holy cow I never thought stuck poop could hurt so bad.

I move to the bathtub and realize it’s just not coming out. It’s stuck. So my hubby tells me to try to stick a finger in and try to just loosen it up (I know gross but at this point we had to figure out something). So it’s like a horror story. I’m literally sticking my finger up my butt while crying in pain trying to break up what felt like a hard rock. In little small pieces, over maybe 30 minutes or so, I was able to get enough relief to where I can stand up and clean up the bathroom and continue.

Horror story. Omg 😩

Now I’m having the issue of still feeling like I need to poop (I didn’t get all of it - just enough to where I could not be in dying pain) and I’m so nervous to go sit on the toilet and start to push again or the same thing will happen.

Any ideas? I know this may be funny or gross but it was extremely painful and I’m so worried about this happening again right now! Don’t know what to do 😩😩