I want this baby so much. I want to be pregnant, want to go through the pain of child birth so I can have this baby and do absolutely anything for them, I want to be up at the latest hours of the night to take care of a tiny human who is half of me, I want to go through and love my babe when she’s in her terrible twos, I want to see my son walk for the first time, I want to drop them off at kindergarten with tears streaming down my face as I leave so they can get their education, I want to help them through friend issues and school problems, through hormones and PMS, talk to them about dating, first dances, trying new foods, traveling. I want it so so bad